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  Hollow

  Heaven Hill Generations #4

  Laramie Briscoe

  Contents

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  Blurb

  Members of Heaven Hill

  Prologue

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Chapter 35

  Chapter 36

  Chapter 37

  Chapter 38

  Chapter 39

  Epilogue One

  Epilogue Two

  About the Author

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  Also By Laramie Briscoe

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  Royal Chaos

  Royal Love

  Heaven Hill Series

  Meant To Be

  Out of Darkness

  Losing Control

  Worth The Battle

  Dirty Little Secret

  Second Chance Love

  Rough Patch

  Beginning of Forever

  Home Free

  Shield My Heart

  A Heaven Hill Christmas

  Heaven Hill Next Generation

  Hurricane

  Wild

  Fury

  Hollow

  Restraint

  Heaven Hill Shorts

  Caelin

  Christine

  Justice

  Harley

  Jagger

  Charity

  Liam

  Drew

  Dalton

  Mandy

  Rockin’ Country Series

  Only The Beginning

  One Day at A Time

  The Price of Love

  Full Circle

  Hard To Love

  Reaper’s Girl

  The Nashvegas Trilogy

  Power Couple

  The Moonshine Task Force Series

  Renegade

  Tank

  Havoc

  Ace

  Menace

  Cruise

  Laurel Springs Emergency Response Team

  Ransom

  Suppression

  Enigma

  Cutter

  The MVP Duet

  On the DL

  MVP

  The Midnight Cove Series

  Inflame

  Stand Alones

  My Confession

  Sketch

  Sass

  Trick

  Room 143

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  Blurb

  Dalton Barnett

  Heaven Hill is my home. They took me in when no one else would, introduced me to my family, and have always been here for me. But now I'm on the outside, not able to help the woman who has my heart.

  I'm stuck, unsure of what to do, and struggling badly.

  If anyone should be able to make their wife happy, it's their husband, right?

  Amanda Barnett

  Born a bastard, raised a Walker, and now a Barnett, I've never quite known who I am. Not until someone called me Mom.

  In the aftermath of the biggest deception our club has ever faced, Dalton and I are trying to cope with the miscarriage of our child. The piece of light and hope we had at the end of the darkest times Heaven Hill has ever seen was snatched from us. Even though I'm trying to cope, it's not going well.

  Gone are my feelings of belonging.

  Gone is my excitement to face another day.

  In its place, I'm hollow.

  Members of Heaven Hill

  If you haven’t read the original Heaven Hill series, I do suggest you do that!

  But if it’s too time intensive for you. Here’s a quick Cliff’s Notes version, just so you know who everyone is!

  The Walker’s/Barnett’s

  Liam Walker - member of Heaven Hill MC, married to Denise, father to Tatum, adopted father to Drew and Mandy, brother to Roni, best friend to Tyler, grandfather to Justice, Harley, and Walker.

  Denise Walker - married to Liam, mother to Drew, Mandy, and Tatum, grandmother to Justice, Harley, and Walker.

  Drew Walker - member of Heaven Hill MC, married to Charity, father to twins Justice and Harley, best friend to Dalton, brother to Mandy and Tatum.

  Charity Walker - married to Drew, mother to twins Justice and Harley, attorney.

  Tatum Walker - crushes hard on Remy, daughter to Liam and Denise, sister to Drew and Mandy, aunt to Justice, Harley, and Walker, best friend to Addie.

  Mandy Barnett - married to Dalton, sister to Drew and Tatum, mother of Walker

  Dalton Barnett - Member of Heaven Hill MC, married to Mandy, father to Walker, best friend to Drew.

  Justice and Harley Walker - twins to Drew and Charity.

  Walker Barnett - son to Dalton and Mandy.

  The Blackfoot’s

  Tyler Blackfoot - member of Heaven Hill MC, married to Meredith, father to Caelin, adopted father to Addie, carries a skull mug.

  Meredith Blackfoot - married to Tyler, mother to Caelin, adopted mother to Addie, runs CRISIS.

  Addie Blackfoot - adopted daughter of Tyler and Meredith, sister to Caelin, best friend to Tatum.

  Caelin Blackfoot - son of Tyler and Meredith, brother to Addie

  The Hancock’s

  Rooster Hancock - member of Heaven Hill MC, former Sheriff’s deputy, married to Roni (Liam’s sister), father to Carter, cousin to Jagger.

  Roni Hancock - works for Walker
’s Wheels, married to Rooster, brother to Liam, mother to Carter.

  Carter Hancock - son of Rooster and Roni.

  Others

  Jagger Stone - member of Heaven Hill, married to Bianca, brother to Christine, cousin to Rooster, loves to play music at Wet Wanda’s

  Bianca Stone - teacher for the Warren County school system, married to Jagger, the life of the party.

  Layne O’Conner - member of Heaven Hill, ex-military member, married to Jessica.

  Jessica O’Conner - former Hollywood Starlet turned romance writer, married to Layne.

  Travis Steele - member of Heaven Hill MC, married to Christine, is a computer expert.

  Christine Steele - married to Travis, sister to Jagger, runs a salon in Bowling Green.

  Remington Sawyer - love interest of Tatum, brother to Cash, and prospect of Heaven Hill MC.

  Prologue

  Mandy

  “My name is Mandy and I tried to kill myself.”

  I’m not sure where the strength is coming from for me to say these words in front of a group of people I don’t know. But here I am, in a meeting.

  A meeting I’ve been told I will have to attend every day while I’m here, and if I want to get better, I may as well get used to it.

  “Hi, Mandy.”

  The amount of voices speaking back to me is more than I thought there would be when I came into this room, but as the time came closer for the meeting, people just kept streaming in. So here I am with a bunch of people I don’t know, trying to fix a life that’s gone completely sideways.

  “I tried to kill myself too,” one of the girls sitting on the opposite side of the circle from me says. “Went at my wrist with a pink razor, complete with moisturizing strip.”

  There are some laughs, and it makes me feel slightly better about my situation.

  “The thing was,” she continues. “I didn’t really want it to work, and maybe that’s why it didn’t. There were reasons, of course, because we all have reasons for being here, but they got bad because I wasn’t living my emotions. That’s something you’re going to learn, Mandy. To feel. Don’t be scared of it, let it happen.”

  Nodding, I take all of this in.

  Everyone in our circle goes around saying their name and why they’re here. Some people have issues saying what they did, others say it with a conviction I can’t even imagine right now.

  When the meeting is over, I’m pulled to the side by the woman who checked me in here.

  “Mandy, I’m going to take you to your therapist. For now you’ll be seeing her every day. We’ll adjust as we move on in the process, but it’s important the two of you get along and can speak openly with one another. If you have any issues, please let me know.”

  “I will.” I clasp my hands together as we walk down the hallway.

  My mind is spinning, so many things are happening in such a short amount of time, but I realize that this is almost like shock treatment. If I’m left alone to my own devices, there’s no telling what I might do to myself. When we turn a corner, I see a closed office door with a name on a gold-plated sign.

  Dr. Annabelle Crawford

  We knock on her door, and I hear a come in. The voice is welcoming, not at all like what I was expecting. My only experience has been with Doc Jones, and she loves us all like family, so I’ve always assumed other therapists weren’t nearly as nice.

  “Mandy, this is Dr. Crawford. You’ll have an hour-long session with her, and then I’ll be back to get you. We’ll show you to your room then.”

  What else is there for me to say? “Okay.”

  The door shuts, and I’m faced with the woman I’m supposedly going to tell every single one of my secrets too. She’s young, younger than me, with an easy smile. She flashes it as she comes to sit next to where I’ve taken a spot on the couch.

  “Nice to meet you, Mandy.”

  She has a seat, crossing her legs, placing a pad of paper into her lap. “Why don’t you tell me why you’re here today?”

  I struggle this time. Without the support of a group having the same issue I do, I’m ashamed to tell her what I’ve done.

  Is this how Dalton and Walker feel? Are they ashamed of me?

  My face burns hot, no doubt as red as a tomato.

  “You don’t have to worry.” She leans forward, uncrossing her legs and putting her elbows on her knees. “This is a no judgement zone.”

  While I’d love to believe her, I just don’t know if I do or not. So I want to shock her.

  “I was ready to kill myself in my son’s nursery.”

  She doesn’t even flinch.

  Instead she gives me a sympathetic look before sitting back in her seat and jotting something on her notepad.

  “That must have been a very hard decision for you.”

  “Not as hard as I thought it’d be,” I admit. “I always assumed people who were ready to end their lives were completely done and had no one who loved them. I have a ton of people who love me, but I was still ready to go.”

  “Why?” she questions.

  The answer is right there on the tip of my tongue if I want to be honest about it, but being honest, it’s hard. Harder than the thought of actually going through with killing myself.

  “Because I don’t love me,” I whisper. “I lost the baby that was supposed to be in that nursery, and in the process, I lost myself. I don’t know how to get the person I was back.”

  “Sometimes that’s not possible, Mandy, but you can become someone else. Maybe you’re not the same, but you can still be a version of you that even you can love. We just have some work to do. Are you ready?”

  I think of Dalton, of Walker, my mom and dad, Drew. All of them want me to get better, each of them - in their own ways - have tried to support me over the past few months and I’ve thrown their support back in their faces. This isn’t something I need to do just for me, I need to do it for them too.

  As much as I’ve been hurt, so have they.

  And I haven’t made it any better. If anything I’ve made it worse.

  “I’m ready.” I nod. “I’m not promising I won’t backpedal, because I have a history, but I’m willing to put in the work.”

  “That’s all I’m asking for. You don’t have to have all the answers right now. In fact, you probably won’t have the answers for a long time, but if you’re willing to work at getting them - we can figure out what’s going on.”

  “Yeah.” A grin works its way across my face. “I’d love to know why I’m not normal, why things like this send me into a place I almost can’t come out of. My husband and son deserve it.”

  “Okay.” She grins back at me. “This is what we’ll do. Tonight, I need you to write a letter to yourself, explaining how you’re feeling, laying it all out there. Our next session we’ll discuss the letter, and then we’ll move onto some other things. This is a ninety-day program. At some point, I’d like to bring your family in, if that’s okay with you.”

  The thought gives me pause. “Not right now, but I’m open to it.”

  “Then we’re going to have a good relationship here, Mandy. I look forward to working with you. If you need me for anything, the receptionists know how to get in touch with me. Good luck.”

  “Thanks.”

  And as I get up to leave, for the first time in a long time, I feel hope.

  Hope that I’ll be the woman I used to be - only better.

  Chapter One

  Dalton

  “I can take your shift if you need me to.” Wild reaches over, grabbing a chip from the basket in front of us, dipping it into the queso we all love.

  “You have enough shit going on in your life, I can take my shift. I’ll ask Denise to watch Walker,” I argue, grabbing a chip of my own.

  It’s only been a few days since Mandy left, but it feels like a few months. I miss her, more than I did when she was at the house and I was at the clubhouse. Back then, I always knew I could go there and check on her if need be. Right now, she’
s fifty miles north, and I’m going out of my fucking mind, wondering if she’s okay.

  But this is part of the process that will, with any luck, make her better, and if it’s going to bring her back to me, I’ll deal with anything thrown my way.

  “How’s Walker doing?” he asks as our plates come to the table.

  I lean back, admiring the smoking plate of fajitas in front of me. The two of us don’t normally have lunch together, but when he asked, I accepted. It’s nice to get out of my own head for a while. Eating lunch at the shop has gotten super strange, with everyone not sure what to say to me.

  “He’s doing okay. I think we’re both just trying to figure out how this is all going to work. Plus I’m a single parent, which I’ve never been before, so that brings with it some new issues I’ve never had to deal with.”